Although you are not here with us in flesh , I know your spirit is with us all the time. I miss you so much dad, its still unbelievable. Even writing this doesn't seem real. I try not to think about it, but it so much that the brain can do as of acting for itself. I sometimes doubt this tragic and tell myself you're just on a vacation and will return someday. When reality hits me and my brain replay the altercation i break down. I cry hard tears of sadness , disbelief, shock, anger, why my dad? They say to never question God's doing but then again you cant help but to ask why. I think i would be at peace if my dad wasn't TAKEN away by another person. Maybe if if was from natural causes I will have more peace but no! That clearly isn't the case. Dad i want you to come visit me sometimes , even if you just show me your handsome face i would be satisfied. I don know how to live on the day to day basis without you crossing my mind. I'm trying my best for your "Granddaddy man" Ahmad Jr. We love and miss you extremely bad! See you later my fat man.
Love , Your Babygirl Tracey.